今天回家。。。
嘻嘻! 超级+超级+超级开心的喽!
这次回家发现很多很多事。。。
有让我心疼有让我觉得“可爱”的事。。要写哪件先呢? 嘻嘻! 就从可爱那里着手。。哈哈。。。
sshhhh....h...h....... 不要告诉他,我写他的事出来哦!
我家有个帅哥。。哈哈。。 今年才12岁
没想到年纪轻轻的学人家去靠女哦!!!
真的是给他炸到..
最近有女生sms+msn他哦。。
人家已经那么主动了有人还不为所动哦。。
真的是该好好教导他了。。 哈哈!
(PS:给他看到这篇。。我的头可不保了!嘻嘻!)
嗯。。。这次回家。。意外地让我发现了。。
原来。。
原来岁月,让我成长了。。
随着岁月的流逝,我成长。
幼稚的心灵还以为爹地妈咪会和我一样成长。。
在和妈咪聊天时。。发现妈咪头上多了不少银丝。。
我的心很疼很疼。。
才发现。。在时间一分一秒地过。。
我是在成长。。爹地妈咪是相反的。。
这个是很难接受的事实。。就像我们永远在父母心中都是小孩般。。。
在我心中。。爹地妈咪还是像以前那样年轻。。
外婆也像我小时候那样,拿着她的“秘密武器”从客厅追到我进厨房再从厨房到庭院。。
就只因为我不乖乖听话。。不吃饭、不洗澡或课业乱放。。
现在外婆身体不好。。年纪大了。。
有时真的很恨我自己。。为什么不是在早五年出世呢?
为什么迟了那么久。。
如果早五年。。。我现在已经出社会工作了。。
已经会有能力来供养爹娘、供弟妹读书了。。
这个时候的爹地妈咪应该是要呆在家里享福的。。
不是像现在这样还在工作,赚钱供我们读书那些。。唉~
没跟他说这件事。。希望他不会看到这篇。。免得又多一个人担心我。。
我没事。。只是。。 暂时无法接受这些事实而已。。忽然想得多。。
我会慢慢地。。接受。。
我会好好孝顺你们的!
Gameboy-ing At 11:39 PM
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-+Wednesday, October 28, 2009+-
hmm.. i dont know how to start this blog.. because this blog is kinda extra for me..
why i still wana wrote these?
if i didnt write these out i dont know what time will i going to bed..
(first, i wana say sorry if i got any wrong thinking or words that are sharp to you.. maybe.. i dont know)
when the first i move in...
i'm an EXTRA..
i'm the person who is not suppose to be here..
it makes me felt guity.. and i start asking myself..
am i suppose to be here?? should i move out??
i'm the last one who said want to join.. i should be happy + luckily because friends willing to squeeze with me..
but.. there are too many people here. is crowded i could say..
if without me, they must be more comfortable+more happy..
at first, i 'm thinking of moving out and stay with another friend..
but.. we are having different course.. my mom dont let me.. (i still got chance to get it)
haiz.. i had spent lots of money in this house.. i cant move out!!!!
i 'm not going to waste myparent's money.. even though i know they will allow i move out..
as i'm not happy staying here..
my house is full of joys right??
but i'm still feel that i'm alone even though it is crowded,,
start from begining,
i can feel like i'm isolated.. as most of them when going out are two by two..
and i? haha.. sure be alone la..
is impossible we can walk with three,,
sure got one person left out..
i know the feeling.. i dont like to left people out..
so, i prefer i left out by others.. rather than other left out by us..
stop ODERING me to do thing!!!
i had enough with this!!!!! WTF..
so silly do this do that!!! what the hell is that????
please do not blame me if i IGNORE you.. because i HATE!!!
i dont want to quarrel.. the only thing that i could do is ignore it..
i really dislike.. when i willing to use my things..
but unfortunetly i cant use.. because it is in use..
for example,
my table.. like a rubbish dump..
i cant even clean my table although i willing to.. because is in use..
do you know why i call my table as a rubbish dump???
this is due to someone(i dont know who is that).. likes to put unknown stuff +useless paper+many unknown things on my table..
DAMN FREAKING BLOODY MESSY!!!!!!
I HATE it!!!!
why got so many tables they didnt put.. why must put on mine??????
hmm.. haha.. always said that i like to talk on phone with him..
but do you notice that why i prefer to talk on phone rather to talk with you all????
did you even think about it??
PLEASE do not judge on me.. without thinking of the reason,,
dont say that i'm quite..
i'm not quite actually.. i 'm trying to be more talkative with you..
here comes the point... IS THERE ANYONE HEAR MY WORDS AND RESPECT ME????
hmm.. i could say almost NO... nobody want to hear the things that i'm talking about..
when i'm talking with a certain person A, A is like is there anyone in front of me? talking with me?? then is like hmm.. continue the topic with B.. and IGNORE me..
seem like i even never appear in front of them..
try to think about.. if you were i, willing to talk with a person.. but then person just pretend didnt see and didnt hear you, and continue talking with another..
what will you feel????? feel happy???? haha..
i really dont know what happened to myself.. i dont like,, really dont like when people take my things to use without asking my permission.. hmm.. i think if the stituation is not suitable to ask me,,
i'm ok with that,, but then.. after use.. dont even say thank you..
hmm.. if you want to talk something secretly.. please find somewhere else like balcony to talk about..
if you really do not want me to hear,, why dont you go out?
in stead of asking me dont hear or talk quietly among yourself..
lastly, please do mind.. dont make too much of noise..
when i'm sleep(this is settle, in the process of changing.. this i know.. just forget it)
thats your personality or characteristics..i dont want to bother about it.. but
sometime, in deep night.. can you please do mind about other???
will you feel that you will sleep like pig when the door opposite or the door beside you kept making noise even though is already "AM" still shouting like dont know what..
maybe you still awake.. still dont want to sleep but.. have you ever think about others??
they might study whole day long.. damn sleepy d..
do not make others as same as you..
here is another case.. when most of the friends are not in..
i planned to my to my relative's house. as another friend plan to go to friend's place..
but because of a sentence we stay in the house..
"dont you feel that you are selfish to dump us at home??"
on that time.. i really wana answer you.. dont you feel like you are selfish too??? i already told my mom that i will spent my weekend in my relative;s house.. you make me broke the promise..
is it you are not selfish at all?? you make your plan break just to make the house seem like more people accompany you.. got the idea??
chances + time were given... but the thing is you didnt realize it.. dont say that i didnt give you chances and time to improve..
soonly, my patient will reach a limit.. i dont know what will i do...
maybe thats all i want to say.. i'm going to bed now..
i dont mind what will you thinking about me.. that is what i want to say..
not face by face.. its kinda hard..
Gameboy-ing At 10:19 AM
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-+Thursday, October 1, 2009+-
haiz.. yesterday i m having a problem.. sorry for my impolite action..
i was out of control.. really sorry for that..
SORRY..
hmm.. at night.. i m quite emo..
i miss my PIG.. T.T
i miss the one which i left at home..T.T
regret!! for forgot to bring it here..
i dont know i cry how many times for it....
haiz~~~~~
MooDY.. yesterday...
now ok d.. ^^ dont worry.. hahaz..
Gameboy-ing At 1:23 AM
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In moral class now.. hehe..
i had a long time didn't blogging..
hmm... lets report the schedule for this week.. ^^
on this Saturday, i have to sit for my malaysian studies's mid-term from 10.00 to 11.30 .. X.x
(PS: i havent finish stuying yet.. Ohh my gosh..)
at night.. since the day is mooncake festival.. so.. at night i will be having a BBQ party with my buddies.. ^^ ITS TIME TO PLAY..
(PS: hehe.. take a break.. take a breath after midterm.. ^^)
then.. on sunday, i got a wonderful plan!! haha
i had INVITED my dear darling YEAH CHEEN to go Times square with me..
it must be very fun! ^^
cant wait untill that day.. hehe..

hmm.. she will "dump" her friends and shop with me..
but then.. hmm.. actually i really dont mind to shop with her friends..
hmm.. since she said so.. then .. nothing lor..
CANT WAIT FOR IT!!!
(PS: counting still got how many hours and how many minutes for the day to come.. ^^)
Gameboy-ing At 1:06 AM
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